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[10 May 2007|11:36pm] |
I have a new journal, if any of you would like to add me, please do so and let me know. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) seatowns
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[04 Apr 2007|09:39am] |
some sort of nervousness has struck me recently. i can't look anyone in the face anymore.
pros/cons.
Whittier:
+ a safe route, the least messy option. close enough, and convenient. opportunity to design my own major. opportunity to study in denmark.
- does not offer a degree in what i want to pursue. does not offer russian. i feel like i would be "settling" by going.
Wheaton:
+ offers Russian. east coast. more opportunity for change and new experiences.
- i'm not sure if i want to be that far away. does not offer linguistics or communication disorders degree. i'm waitlisted so this is probably not even an option.
Community College: shit, i can't believe this is an option
+ gives me time to settle more into what i want to pursue, specifically. super convenient.
- messy dealing with transfers. does not offer specific courses i.e. linguistics, russian. why the hell am i so set in studying these things
i promise never to make lists again.
i need to seriously sit down and vent and have someone who is not related to me tell me what to do, more specifically help me decide what i want to do because i have absolutely no idea about anything anymore
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[27 Mar 2007|09:59pm] |
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i want to forget all the things i shouldn't.
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[14 Mar 2007|12:53am] |
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instead of wallowing, i've decided that i'm going to work at discovering the things in life that truly make me happy on my own. no waiting for it to find me anymore.
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[08 Mar 2007|11:48pm] |
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whatever i do, i want to help people. i want to be there and listen and understand. i want to work patiently, with realistic goals in mind. i want to pursue dreams one at a time, i want to become good at a small handful of things, i want to make handmade prints and cards and write love letters to the man i love and kiss small children goodnight and tell stories and i want to feel this kind of love connecting me to those who are part of me, fully and completely my heart, sighing and swaying throughout life as an oscillating balance of weights and i want to take care of myself and remember to laugh and take things lightly, and be the one who sticks around, who never fails to remember and is always learning and trying something new. i want to follow my dreams and even allow life to lead me astray so that i might learn things the hard way and gain some life-changing experiences. i want to always be moving, moving forward and growing. this is my life and it is changing every moment with each thought and each day and movement that i make. i love everything about my self and my connected world and the love that is here and will be coming and going. life.
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[26 Feb 2007|04:05pm] |
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i feel good about my body today. and i've been smiling so much lately over the smallest of things. my mother comes home from the airport, and although i tend to enjoy the absense of my parents, i have missed her and am going to take her out to her favorite mexican restaurant for dinner. and i'm in love. life is going so well.
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[26 Dec 2006|02:47am] |
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i am so insanely happy
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[25 Nov 2006|08:37pm] |
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I suppose that I have figured out what it is that I want now. The strange thing is that for the first time I am allowing myself to want something that I may never be able to obtain again. And, somehow, I'm fine with that.
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